school of faith

i am keeping this at a very low profile... i just cant imagine i am going... my mind is thinking about it everyday... all kinds of thought and voices are running all over.. filled with mixture of excitement and fear, faith but many uncertainties... i actually never thought or plan to go in the beginning, it is totally out of the question and is like ridiculously impossible... but.. somehow i was given a little bit of faith just to search for the brochure to just look at it, then i hang it on my wall to tell myself "hmm may be i can.." and somehow my spirit is prompting me to go.. i remembered Pst Paul said sth like this before if you turn right God will bless you, if you turn left God will still bless you, and is better than you make a mistake then making no decision.. is tough tough decision.. with nothings seem favourable, with no family support, no financial support, in the midst of all the final year assignments, lessons, revision, exams and at the risk of halfway drop out in failing to get extension of my ns disruption, and the price of delaying getting a full time job, some more at the cost of losing my petite weight! man.. what a nice reasons i am going... sometime my heart is trembling.. wondering am i overestimated my faith.. now i seriously have no answer... but at the end of the day, is about following the route of faith... sometime i just have to trust God a little bit more.. for the joy of the Lord is my strength.. SOT here i come!